In other news: currently obsessed with the Green Day demo song ‘Black Eyeliner’ from the 25th anniversary (jfc the time has past) release of Nimrod.

Some songs just catch me from the first listen and hit me deep. Maybe some of it is the familiarity since part of the chorus ended up in ‘Church on Sunday.’ But usually the combo of the music & melodies hit me, and the lyrics do on a subconscious level until I learn the actual lyrics.

PS I’m procrastinating

Arp Laszlo
Hi, I’m Arp! I got diagnosed with ADHD at 49, and now I'm trying to figure out what's me, what's masking, and just about everything else. I make comics (when imposter syndrome isn't striking) and write about life as a creative Indian-American. I’m self-taught, self-employed, and self-flagellating.

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This awaited me in the kitchen after I woke up today. A crafty teen who loves #spiders might have a funeral planned. 🕷️🕷️🕷️🪦🪦🪦

It’s so irritating when you ask a question online and people answer questions you didn’t even ask. I thought about adding ‘If you don’t have an answer to the actual question asked please feel free to not reply’ but I thought that sounded a little douchey. But a little douchiness would have avoided future me’s irritation. #PetPeeves #SocialMedia

adhd brain not really
Sooooooo this year has been, um… what’s the opposite of whirlwind -quicksand? My mental state has been absolute crap this year. I had 2 incredible, brain fog free weeks after opening up to a therapist for the first time in December. Then it slowly crept back over the holiday break and came back full force in January. That was when I learned that #brain-fog is a symptom of #depression. And I realized that all the years I thought I was not depressed I was actually depressed. I did a bang-up job of burying my emotions, how healthy 😆😭😆😭😆 The last 2 months have been crappy. I’m ridden with brain fog, generally unmotivated, and getting by with the bare minimum. And the country is an actively flushing toilet, with economic doom looming. What a time to be alive. Or not. I’m focused on chasing the dragon lack of brain fog, or ...

coddiwomple (v.) to travel in a purposeful manner towards a vague destination.
#TIL that there’s a word that describes my whole damn life 😆 Except my ‘purposeful manner’ zigged and zagged a lot. No real destination in mind, just ideas of where I thought I wanted to go – or where I thought I should (🤦🏽‍♂️) be going. Some of this is #adhd related (like half-heartedly doing things I had no interest in) and some is not (school teaches you to not listen to yourself because Other People Know Better). But I would like to correct course and have a destination in mind for once. Also: ‘Coddiwomple’ is an incredible word. #Language can be so much fun! #Vocabulary #TIL #WordOfTheDay

adhd fatigue
It’s Friday, which means my #adhd brain is tired from the week as I worked a little too long on a couple of days. It’s a lot easier to get distracted on Friday morning and a lot less motivating to get the day going. I try to limit my hours of work per day but I’ve been experimenting with change the last couple of weeks. Maybe it’s worth it to get what I can get done on some days, striking while the iron/hyperfocus is hot? It must all even out in the end. Or this could simply be the result of 3 straight nights of mediocre sleep. #ADHDer #AdultADHD

#TIL #BootsyCollins did NOT play the #bass line in ‘Groove Is In The Heart’ 🤯🤯🤯. It’s a sample from the #HerbieHancock track ‘Bring Down The Birds’ played by #RonCarter (who I wanted to take a class with during my short stint at #CUNY). #sampling #paulthompson #Deee-lite #Music #90s

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