The goal of life is rapture. #Art is the way we experience it.
Joseph Campbell
Arp Laszlo
More Notes & Asides
I have watched too much #Survivor in my life. It’s a guilty pleasure 🫣. But learning I have #adhd made me realize that I would SUCK at it cuz I can’t play the social game. But how would Survivor go if ALL contestants were #neurodiverse? What if everyone took things literally, had trouble lying, & couldn’t read social cues? There’d be less conniving, less of the stuff the show loves to highlight. But I think there’d be more real cooperation & stuff. It could be quite interesting.
I can’t count the number of times someone asked me to stop pacing because ‘it made them nervous.’ Has that happened to you?
I stopped taking #Adderall daily 3w ago because I wasn’t sure it was really making a big difference. I had skipped it unintentionally a couple of days in the month prior and didn’t notice, which is what got me thinking about stopping. Instead of the XR I now have the regular kind for use as needed, so I had one yesterday and was pretty productive and focused over the course of the afternoon. But I fucking woke up at 5:30 and couldn’t go back to sleep. The stuff is not going to be very useful if it fucks with my sleep and worsens my symptoms the following day 😑 #adhd

After just reacting to requests & urgency in my work for ages I decided to sit down & (over several days) and write out the answers to a bunch of questions that I need to know. What do I like to do? What do I want to do? And I have to write this all by hand because, for whatever reason, when I write stuff down is when I do my best thinking. Below is the list of questions I came up with, in case it helps other #adhd / #AuADHD folks. I’m also proud of myself that I came up with these questions WITHOUT DOING ANY RESEARCH. I’m prone to Gathering Info so I can make the best decisions not make mistakes or be wrong. This time I just trusted in myself, I’ve researched plenty, I know this stuff, and it doesn’t have to be perfect. The Questions What ...



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