adhd brain not really

Sooooooo this year has been, um… what’s the opposite of whirlwind -quicksand? My mental state has been absolute crap this year. I had 2 incredible, brain fog free weeks after opening up to a therapist for the first time in December. Then it slowly crept back over the holiday break and came back full force in January.

That was when I learned that #brain-fog is a symptom of #depression. And I realized that all the years I thought I was not depressed I was actually depressed. I did a bang-up job of burying my emotions, how healthy 😆😭😆😭😆

The last 2 months have been crappy. I’m ridden with brain fog, generally unmotivated, and getting by with the bare minimum. And the country is an actively flushing toilet, with economic doom looming.

What a time to be alive. Or not.

I’m focused on chasing the dragon lack of brain fog, or Not Being Depressed. Because I’m depressed af, except I think I know what’s causing it. And resolving that is a monumental fucking task 😱😱😱

Arp Laszlo
Hi, I’m Arp! I got diagnosed with ADHD at 49, and now I'm trying to figure out what's me, what's masking, and just about everything else. I make comics (when imposter syndrome isn't striking) and write about life as a creative Indian-American. I’m self-taught, self-employed, and self-flagellating.

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#TIL that #WordPress’ #Gutenberg block editor has built-in character & word counting abilities – just click on that little blue ℹ️ in a circle icon and voila. I needed to know this info as I’m testing crossposting here from #WP, & that toot should have posted in the time it took me to write this. Gutenberg has been around for over 4y & I managed to forget this existed (thx #adhd 🧠).

A lot of Claire Paniccia’s marketing advice resonates with me because her thing is helping neurodiverse entrepreneurs. As one of her target audience, I’ve tried a lot of Conventional Marketing Wisdom that (surprise) failed and (no surprise) just added to the reasons I have to self-flagellate while making connecting with people feel more like a chore than an interesting or fun thing to do. This bit from her latest newsletter (the image) hits the spot. The idea that I don’t text a friend at a specific time every week is so common sense yet . I’d much rather have a friend-like relationship with people interested in my efforts than be a robotic provider of content. If you dig this, go check her out. She’s the only newsletter I subscribe to that I actually read. ClairaPaniccia.com

blog.cara.app site status & known issues — cara artist social & portfolio platform 2024 06 07 13
If anyone has wondered why there have been so few attempts at alternatives to #Facebook #Instagram #Youtube et al the situation with #Cara illustrates why: it’s expensive AF to host a site with a shit ton of users and files. One busy week added $96,280 to their hosting bill – and that will only increase. https://techcrunch.com/2024/06/06/a-social-app-for-creatives-cara-grew-from-40k-to-650k-users-in-a-week-because-artists-are-fed-up-with-metas-ai-policies

If you’re a creator with #adhd and have a #website and struggle with what to focus on, this is a super helpful video on how to handle your wide-ranging #interests & passions. The big takeaway for me is simply not putting passions that are not meant to be income-producing in the site navigation.

Why is it that #dictation on my #iPad understands ‘fuck’ perfectly while #dictation on my #iPhone ducks it up every time? #Autocorrect #iOS #iPadOS #Siri #POSSE #RiddleMeThis

The brain’s frontal lobes, which are involved in ADHD, continue to mature until we reach age 35. In practical terms, this means that people with ADHD can expect some lessening of their symptoms over time. Many will not match the emotional maturity of a 21-year-old until their late 30’s. So while most people graduating from college take time to adjust to adult life, people with ADHD need more time, more family support, and more professional help.
Have you read this? It made me wonder how I managed to adult in the minimal capacity I could in my 20s & on – which consisted, tbh, in drinking too much #alcohol (a source of #dopamine & lowered #anxiety). But I’m thinking more on how to best guide & support my kids (though without some of the punitive ideas like charging rent, the author is a dinosaur from the 60s). https://www.additudemag.com/grow-up-already-why-it-takes-so-long-to-mature/

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