This confuses me so much, part of me wants to break shit and the other part just wants to groove

#music #JudasPriest #MichaelJackson #80s #mashup

Arp Laszlo
Hi, I’m Arp! I got diagnosed with ADHD at 49, and now I'm trying to figure out what's me, what's masking, and just about everything else. I make comics (when imposter syndrome isn't striking) and write about life as a creative Indian-American. I’m self-taught, self-employed, and self-flagellating.

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YouTube served this up to me this morning and watching it was trippy AF! Also head-wobble inducing, I can’t help myself when I find myself agreeing with someone speaking Bengali or Hindi 😆 I am #Bengali and didn’t speak English until I was 5, despite being born in the US. We spent 1/2 the year in #Kolkata #India until I was 8 and were immersed in the #NewYorkCity #Indian community when in the States. The #Bangla voice actors seemed pretty true to the Western characters, except for Peter B. Parker, whose exhaustion was ignored in favor of a happy-go-lucky dad. They changed his tired “I have a baby” to a happy “Yes, a very sweet baby!” 🤦🏽‍♂️ I want to see this in Bengali, to see the different choices they made for acting & emotions. And maybe with the captions on, because I have the vocabulary of a 10 year ...

One of the hardest parts of being an #entrepreneur with #adhd is needing some positive feedback (aka #dopamine) to helo follow through on complex #projects. I can break things down into a zillion steps and chip away, but pouring everything in without getting anything back makes each subsequent step harder & harder. Any frustrations along the way dealing with things out of my control, like vendors & their ‘support’ just pushes me over the edge. #neurodivergent

The goal of life is rapture. #Art is the way we experience it. Joseph Campbell #JosephCampbell #Mythology #Wisdom #Quote

As is common with folks who have adhd, I find meditation to be extremely challenging. But this short segment by Andrew Huberman makes me a bit more intrigued than the usual ‘don’t think about anything’ that meditation seems to be. The idea of ‘watching’ my thoughts & feelings go makes more sense than what I’ve ready on how to meditate before (maybe I read just that and glossed over it).

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Just writing this stresses me the f out 😖 I’m pushing myself far out of my comfort zone, to pursue something I’ve long wanted, that I think I can do well – but have been frozen by #anxiety, #ImposterSyndrome, & #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria. I’m gonna record myself singing for the #GreenDay Cover Project, deadline next Tuesday 3/15 at midnight.

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And thus I realized that I totally forgot to take my meds yesterday. #ADHD #AdultADHD #ADHDlife

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