Social Media
These are my social media posts & updates. I write them here, and they are copied to my Mastodon and/or Pixelfed accounts. Magically, comments are imported from the Fediverse too. This is one way to take control back from venture-capital backed aggregator sites.
#POSSE #IndieWeb
Finally found a pic of my all-time favorite #Halloween#costume: a Generic Bad Guy from a #1970s#Bollywood masala film! I was most definitely named ‘Zebisko’ (my favorite bad guy name, ever, from one of my favorite movies ‘Amar Akbar Anthony’), thrifted the green polyester jacket & red 70s tux shirt, and sadly did not grow the #fumanchu (it’s fake hair & spirit gum). I wish I still had that polyester jacket 🙁 #FunFact: Masala films blend multiple genres into one movie: action, romance, comedy, drama, and – of course – musicals; the best were made in the late #70s and early #80s. #Films are usually 3h long so you get your money’s worth and there is literally something for everybody. Pointless sidenote: people wore #bellbottoms in India throughout the 80s, and as late as 1994 I met a guy in the Bombay airport who dressed like Neil Diamond from the 70s Every Single Day, down to the hair. The anachronism of #Indian fashion before the internet was AWESOME. #fillims #IndianAmerican
Sooooooo this year has been, um… what’s the opposite of whirlwind -quicksand? My mental state has been absolute crap this year. I had 2 incredible, brain fog free weeks after opening up to a therapist for the first time in December. Then it slowly crept back over the holiday break and came back full force in January. That was when I learned that #brain-fog is a symptom of #depression. And I realized that all the years I thought I was not depressed I was actually depressed. I did a bang-up job of burying my emotions, how healthy 😆😭😆😭😆 The last 2 months have been crappy. I’m ridden with brain fog, generally unmotivated, and getting by with the bare minimum. And the country is an actively flushing toilet, with economic doom looming. What a time to be alive. Or not. I’m focused on chasing the dragon lack of brain fog, or Not Being Depressed. Because I’m depressed af, except I think I know what’s causing it. And resolving that is a monumental fucking task 😱😱😱
adderall, adhd, brainfog, caffeine, Concerta, depression, Stoicism, Strattera, subconscious, Vyvanse
Tomorrow is Day 28 on #Vyvanse, and it’s been a promising time. Not necessarily due to the Vyvanse, though it’s better than #Adderall, #Concerta, or #Strattera for me. Definitely smoother and more ‘in the background’ than other #adhd meds (if they even worked for me), with the only downside being not being able to tolerate much #caffeine while it’s active or I get far beyond jittery. More importantly, it’s been 15 days since I spoke to a new therapist, after a 10 day emotional rollercoaster that was kicked off by a song I hadn’t heard since childhood. I opened up to a therapist for the first time, after previously holding back the stuff I wanted to avoid with multiple therapists. But after the rollercoaster I was on, I just had to let it out. The day after this therapy session, 99% of my #brainfog disappeared, and my executive dysfunction vastly improved. I thought it was the Vyvanse finally starting to work out of the blue after 2 weeks but I haven’t found another example of it working suddenly that well for anyone else. I did learn that #depression can result in brain fog and GODDAMN DOES THAT EXPLAIN A LOT. I was depressed and unaware of it, which is annoying since I’ve been depressed in the past and thought I’d be able to recognize it. I thought I was in a good place, having worked hard for years to not be reactive, to not get worked up over anything inconsequential or out of my control (much thanks to #Stoicism for showing me the way 🙏🏽). One song started an emotional avalanche where it felt like all the work I’d done on myself disappeared and every single fear & insecurity I’d ever had all came roaring back at once. I thought I was losing it. Sometimes thoughts were racing so fast I couldn’t keep up. I know a lot was coming from my #subconscious but a lot of still felt like it was out of left field. I thought I was experiencing mania, after seeing it was an uncommon side effect of Vyvanse (and prolly many other stimulants). I don’t believe that to be the case, as my emotional episodes didn’t interfere with my responsibilities; I was just grasping at straws. What I am coming to terms with is that Wish me luck 🫣🫣🫣
I had a major breakthrough yesterday, #singing at full volume in front of someone else. Usually I sing alone in the car, pretty damn loudly according to my watch‘s decibel warnings. I’ve long wanted to sing in bands & stuff and I recently realized that #anxiety strangled my voice when I tried – and even affected my normal speaking voice, making it much higher pitched than it should be. So singing at full volume in the car with our 19yo is a big deal 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽. #adhd #music #smallwins
Today might have been the most productive day I’ve had in a loooooong time. And not one of those *I’m hyperfocused so I work for 12h* days either. I knocked off a bunch of todos, worked 2h+ on one of my 2 big long term projects, upgraded a computer (that didn’t work, troubleshooting will be next weekend), and now it’s time to for some self care (bathing & grooming). #Vyvanse might be magic, or it might have been my new therapist last week. #adhd #AuADHD #AdultADHD
After just reacting to requests & urgency in my work for ages I decided to sit down & (over several days) and write out the answers to a bunch of questions that I need to know. What do I like to do? What do I want to do? And I have to write this all by hand because, for whatever reason, when I write stuff down is when I do my best thinking. Below is the list of questions I came up with, in case it helps other #adhd / #AuADHD folks. I’m also proud of myself that I came up with these questions WITHOUT DOING ANY RESEARCH. I’m prone to Gathering Info so I can make the best decisions not make mistakes or be wrong. This time I just trusted in myself, I’ve researched plenty, I know this stuff, and it doesn’t have to be perfect. The Questions What do I like to do? What do I not like doing or don’t want to do? What do I want to do? What am I good at? What am I bad at? What do my clients like about me? (I emailed them to ask) What motivates me? What are my values? What do I want to do for others? For my family? What do I want to do for myself? What do I need to do before I die? What are the next steps to put these beliefs, ideas, and desires into action?
Right now, I’m doing something I thought I’d never do in my life: drink decaffeinated #coffee. I learned quickly that #Vyvanse + coffee = Jitters From Hell so I’ve avoided coffee these 3 weeks. That royally messed up my morning routine, which included blending 30g of protein into my coffee, which prevents me from getting stupid hangry mid-morning and resorting to eating anything I can get my hands on. I’m glad to say it doesn’t taste like watered down coffee 😂 #ADHD #AuADHD
Fucking A – I think #Vyvanse actually works. After 2 rollercoaster weeks, the last 2 days I’ve felt more clearheaded, focused, and motivated than I’ve ever been in my life. #adhd #adultadhd
One of the worst things about having #adhd is getting an idea and forgetting it in the few seconds it takes to find my notes app to write it down 🤦🏽♂️
Q for #graphicdesign experts, particularly those designing for #merch or #print:What’s the smallest dot that can be printed via #DTG (direct to garment) printing?This is a sample I had printed and the dots are a mess. I know they need to be bigger but what’s the smallest size where each dot looks clearly like a dot? #merchandise #MerchDesign
My patience these days for non-native English speakers providing #techsupport is ZERO. They’re not much better than ‘ai’ and getting the right answer is like pulling teeth. I try to give all the details needed to answer my question and they ignore most of it, don’t understand what they do pay attention to, and give the quickest answer they can that is vaguely related to what I asked. It’s frustrating as hell, they’re just hurdles in trying to get anything done.
Good info from #TrueGritTextureSupply on how to protect your #art from #generativeAI. https://www.truegrittexturesupply.com/blogs/news/how-to-protect-your-art-from-ai #MastoArt #Ai
AgeOfEmpires, Civilization, medieval, MusicProduction, MusicTech, samples, sampling, TeenageEngineering
This thing is ridiculous AND I MUST HAVE IT. I’ve long wanted a hardware sampler and the #TeenageEngineering –133 k.o.2 caught my attention for being feature-packed while being usable with batteries to reduce friction. But a version with #medieval #samples takes the cake! Years back I was really into #AgeOfEmpires and #Civilization so I’m tempted to use this to make a soundtrack for the different parts of my life (like when discovering agriculture or when I want to stab a neighboring principality in the back). Go check it out: https://teenage.engineering/products/ep-1320 #MusicProduction #Sampling #MusicTech Photo by Teenage Engineering
AffiinityDesigner, Affinity, DigitalArt, digitalillustrator, Duke, greenroomireland, greenroommedia, Lemur, lowbrowart, lowbrowartist, MastoArt, museum, posterdesign, Punk, Skull, tamarin, textures
I had a LOT of fun making this with #greenroomireland‘s #punk #AffiinityDesigner assets. All strokes, graphics, & #textures are from their asset pack, except for the font (Futura) and the #skull, which is that of a modern cotton-top #tamarin (I took the photo at #Duke #Lemur Center’s cute little #museum). #greenroommedia #digitalart #textures #digitalillustrator #DigitalArt #MastoArt #Affinity #lowbrowart #lowbrowartist #posterdesign
Enjoy a silly #video of our #birb enjoying the #cats’ water fountain. #bird #birds #birdsOfFediverse #caturday #cockatiel
Logan Paul & Rhea Ripley are wearing baggy 2000 era pants now. We can finally stick a fork in the skinny jeans era 🥳🥳🥳 #WWE #ProWrestling
